was browsing through some of my albums in fb. comparing the us now and the us in july. its so different. everyone changes like so fast. we were so happy back then. i couldnt describe it in fact. no worries and everything. everything was so genuine .
how i wish all e problems that everyone's facing now can just disappear. i really wish for it to be just a nightmare , and nth comes true. IF ONLY. all the regretful decisions , all the unnecessary hurt , avoiding, misunderstanding , worries, SHOOOO!!! I DONT WANT THEM ALL. NONE.
hai . must be thinking why i'm kind of affected. ok i haven really got the chance to tell anyone cos my trouble as compared to theirs is really minimal.. i think they need more help and listening than i do. i really want to help them all. be it lending a listening ear or whatever. cos i know it really , really is terrible not to have such support and accompaniment.
hai . but well, i just feel that i could have done sth otherwise to avoid everything, like really EVERYTHING. to start off, root of problem was myself. ok . all the wrong moves and everything. 'm already like guilty-stricken . totally. so can U stop making me feel bad about everything already? not as if i really care what u think, and not as if u bother, but i dont think i can hold it on any longer if ur attitude persists.
right now, i just want to help as much as possible . be it case 1, case 2 , case 3 . . . but of cos, i dont want my gd intention to be misjudged. if ever sth like this happens, i can tell u that, nth can beat how disappointed i'll feel.
hai. right now i just need to find someone whos calm and composed to understand how i really feel so that i can relate my emotions. just one.
esprimere lesson .introducing some of my HYPE family members to u.
nth much during lesson today. basically like what bon said, choir in choir. haha. anw, RMIT ppl are back! really good to see them again. haha and fairy introduced me one fb game : icytower. shall go play it soon! (:anw, went down to supper at 85! andy has been aiming for the noodles for uber long, even during his exams, he's still thinking about it. so finally, after 85's revamp, we went there. haha. and the tangyuan joke came about. they really are OMG! hahas. and i realised joyelle can be a uber gd friend of fairy, cos when she starts laughing, its like non-stop also! haha awesome yo! another mad friend of mine soon! LOL.but beneath those laughter , theres another side of me who's feeling really sad. i dont know if sad's the word, but i think its along that line which i cant explain it clearly.